So tomorrow I turn 43. I sure don’t feel 43, although I don’t know what 43 should feel like.
When my mom turned 43 I was about to get married. She was definitely older at 43 than I am! Or was she?
I have friends in their late 40s, early 50s who look and act younger than me. We are a generation that is refusing to accept “middle age” in the classic sense. Even though there’s no denying that we are in fact, middle aged.
I expect to make a lot of changes in the coming year. My tenure as full time stay at home mama is coming to an end. I don’t know what type of job I’ll get but I do know I’ll be getting a job. In all honesty I’d like to work full-time, but I know that’s not reasonable yet- not till Tim is a bit older. And even then- I still don’t feel comforable leaving teens/pre-teens home alone in the afternoon, if I can avoid it. So part time, maybe late hours, I don’t know…
I’d also like to formalize my little “business” of doing web design. I’ve been hesitant- feeling like I don’t know enough, but I’m starting to see that I don’t really need to know enough, what I need to know is where to find things out, who to pass work on to that out of my scope- I can do that. I don’t need to be the fixer, I can be the one who troubleshoots, consults, and finds the fixer- people need that.
I want to blog more. I want to take more photographs and share them here and elsewhere (the new camera that I’m getting (yay!) should help with that!)
Construction on our home is moving along, and I’m excited about moving into our new mastersuite, and excited about helping Nick & Tim set up their new personal spaces.
Andy is moving on. It’s going to be odd around here without him, I’ll miss our tag-team joking around. I’m so excited for him though- my biggest hope is that he really follows his heart and dreams, and doesn’t make the mistakes I made by following other people…
I need to get back into the healthy eating / healthy body mindset I enjoyed oh-so-briefly last year. It felt good. I let emotion/depression dictate my life again over the past 8 months, and I feel lousy about it. Things have to change, because it’s affecting me, it’s affecting relationships… so yeah, there’s that.
That would be the big one.
Happy Birthday Dear Annie! I refuse to “act” my age too! Sometimes I feel my age when I’m tired or worn out, but for the most part, I still like to have a lot of fun! Good luck with the getting back into healthy eating/working out mode. I’m trying to be good the next 2 weeks, then my last week of vacation, then back to the good stuff again! BTDT on depression/anxiety getting the best of me! I am always here if you need me!